Herro there!

It’s 8:23am.

I am gobsmacked! I cannot believe I am up. I guess the sniffling nose got me out of bed. I am trying to wake up early these days because well I need to study for exams and I have three! Ugh.

My plan was to squeeze in a topic before gym and then study for the rest of the day without napping!! I know that I will definitely feel extremely tired after gym but I can’t! Because apparently napping disrupts sleep at night or something… I don’t know, I just need to go to bed early and wake up early. I’m trying to get a good sleeping routine here. I opened my iTunes and hit the ‘feel good pumpy songs’ playlist which consist of 5 songs. I need more feel good pumpy songs. Also, I realised that for the entire weekend I studied the wrong topics for one of my units. Mother eff! 

Motivation #2

I think I have a problem. Going to bed around 5am and waking up at 2pm is not good, especially when I have exams in a week D: 

I started googling ‘motivation to get up early’ and well, yeah… These were the common things that came across nearly all of the websites I looked at: 

• Go to bed early
• Don’t take naps
• Get out of bed right after you wake up
• Have something to look forward to
• Lay your clothes out for the next day
• Make a list the night before of things you have to do
• Exercise
• Stretch
• Put your alarm in another part of the house
• Listen to your body
• Listen to music

Let’s look over them. 

Go to bed early: it’s hard when I’m not tired yet.

Don’t take naps: Yeah I should probably stop that. Maybe I’ll sleep better at night but it’s hard when I’m studying and suddenly I get this overwhelming urge to sleep. Maybe I should study on campus so my bed is not tempting me. 

Get out of bed right after you wake up: Man… I might as well roll out and fall to the ground. But they say that doing so you obviously wake up and reframe from hitting the snooze button.

Have something to look forward to: When it’s winter, there’s nothing to look forward to but I do dream about what I’m going to have for breakfast. Mmm, I always expect pancakes or waffles waiting for me, something hot and delicious but I’ll have to stick with cereal. I’ve actually been having health breakfasts lately, Special K with banana, wheat germ and chia seeds, pretty good. 

Lay your clothes out for the next day: Not a bad idea because then I won’t be rushing around in the morning when I’m still sleepy.

Make a list of things to do: I never stick to the list. I end up Youtubing. 

Exercise: That could work, I do need to lose like 500kg anyways.

Stretch: Did it today and it felt good, real good. I recommend stretching, someone said that it gets the blood pumping around the body after you’ve slept. 

Put alarm in another part of house: I live with 5 other college students and I don’t think they’d appreciate it. 

Listen to your body: when it’s telling you it’s tired. I do but I end up laying there for hours and hours.

Listen to music: It gets you moving and listening to the right music gets me pumped and motivated… to dance and not go to classes. 

I remember I use to wake up early for high school and jump straight into the shower to wake up me. Why can’t I wake up early now? This is ridiculous but I do love uni life sometimes. Even if it is torturous at times. 

By the way I woke up around 2pm today. Time to shower. 

Florence and The Machine

I have a test tomorrow. Uggh!

Watching cooking videos at 3am while hungry and can’t be bothered to make anything is a bad idea. It’s torture. Why do I do this to myself? 

Motivation

Dude, I don’t understand how people (especially Asians) study 24/7. Seriously, how do they do it? I’m trying to study and all I’m doing is checking my facebook, twitter, youtube and googling celebrities and downloading movies. I’m trying to work on my oral presentation but I can’t seem to do it and when I have nothing else to do except study I can’t seem to find the motivation to open my book! I have no motivation whatsoever, I want to drop out of uni and become a hobo or marry a rich, handsome man (which will never happen). How do they do it?! I go crazy after an hour of studying, not even an hour, I can’t concentrate for more than 20 minutes. I am a lame, unmotivated uni student. I don’t know how I pass my assessments. 

I checked my diary today and realised that I only have 2 oral presentations and 1 test to go before exams and I have 3 of them! Argh! 

I have a psych group meeting tomorrow and we’re suppose to discuss what we’re going to be talking about in our presentation and I haven’t done any research! Why? Because I slept until 3pm today then did nothing for the rest of the day! 

It’s been a while

It is 11:30pm and I am pulling an all nighter only because I’m procrastinating real bad. I have a test tomorrow on human anatomy and I really dislike it. There is a reason why I did not take it in year 12. Now, I am forced to do it. 

I’ve actually been pretty busy studying (and sleeping and eating) which is a good thing, I guess. I got a 15/20 for my psych essay which I’m pretty happy about since I did it the night before it was due but I did put a lot of effort into it. I tell myself that I’ll finish it a few days early but what can you do when you’re a uni student, I swear procrastination comes along with the criteria of being a student in general. 

I’m pretty happy switching to psychology, I’m actually interested in the things they’re teaching us even though I don’t go to the lectures and don’t really concentrate in class but it’s still interesting. But the downside is having to take exams. Last year I didn’t have any except for 1 but this semester I have 3 exams which I am not looking forward to and the thing is that the exams are 40% +! ARGH! 

I also joined the gym!!! I’ve been going to it like twice a week and looking to increase that number by going to the gym on weekends. My goal is to lose like 300kg. Maybe 10 kg. 

I’m also of thinking of moving out of campus and looking for a place with my brother. This semester is kind of boring and I’m really over the restrictions they have here, no party? This isn’t a retirement village man, we’re uni students of course we’re going to drink and make loud noises. Jeeze. 

So, I reckon I’ll study for 5 hours then bed then wake up and revise before test which is at 10am! Ugh, I seriously have a hard time getting up in the morning.

More work.

Technically it’s my first year doing psych but second year at uni and having known the jist of how things work I’m feeling extremely lazy and think ‘oh yeah I’ll just read that tomorrow’ or ‘I’ll do the assignment that day’. Changing to psych I don’t regret but the workload from mass comm to psych is extreme. I really don’t want to do any of it, I have 2 classes tomorrow and am not looking forward to it. Basically Tuesday’s and Wednesday’s are bad days for me. Doing 11 contact hours a week is tough, I don’t know how my friend does 24 contact hours a week. Man, I was exhausted from my one hour lecture today. 

I have to get these readings and activities, which I haven’t bothered to look until now, to do before tomorrow morning. And my milk went bad! No coffee for me tonight. I guess I’ll just skim over the readings. 

And I have to do four years of psych. I’m thinking of doing summer school for two years just so I could finish a semester early.

This is going to be rough.

Psychology and paintballing

I don’t know if I’ve said this but I managed to change courses. I am now officially an idiot doing my first year in psych when I could be doing my second year in mass comms but let’s be real here. I still don’t know what I want to do so I just wasted my parents money on first year for nothing. I feel terrible but I swear I will eventually pay them back when I have some dough. 

Psychology is interesting, the units I’m taking are interesting and others are boring. I’m kind of freaking out that I won’t pass some of them but I have drilled it into my brain that I must study otherwise I will go dig a whole and bury myself in it. 

Today I went paintballing with a couple of friends and it was fun and hot! Too hot. I was sweating so much and there were a few times when I felt a trickle of blood running down between my breasts and it didn’t feel good. I got shot but it wasn’t as bad as my flatmate. I guess when the ball bursts on you it’s worse. 

Moving in.

I’m moving in on Monday and I have a couple of things that I am worried about. First, Sarah, one of my flat mates from last year, be in the same flat as me? I hope so. Second, what if there’s Asians? I like Asians seeing as I am one myself but the thing is that they’re really quiet. I think it’s because they don’t think their English is good so they don’t want to talk most of the time. Third, one of my friends that’s already there said that there may be a lot of French people. I don’t know what I feel towards French people but it’s not that positive. I don’t know. I just somehow have it in my head that they’re perverts and that’s totally wrong because they’re probably not. I don’t know why I think like that. 

I’m thinking too much. I think my brain is fried. I might need a new brain. A proper one. I want to be a bird in my next life. How cool would that be? Just flying and nesting and chirping. But it’d have to be a bird that can fly fast and I don’t want to be a pigeon because people eat them… I think. 

Family gets on my nerves. Part 2

Okay, mum is going off at me because she thinks I’m throwing a fit. When in fact she is the one. I’m just watching TV and on my laptop, she walks out and starts yelling at me. What has this world coming to? More importantly, is my mum on something because she is literally going crazy. As she’s yelling me at I’m sitting here trying not to tell her that she’s the one that has problems because she’s the one that’s off her head. Oh jeeze I can’t wait to start uni. Being away from her is what I need.